Psalm 63

This psalm really speaks of how I feel right now, at this juncture of my life.

1 O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; 
   my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you,
   in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
2 I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory.
3 Because your love is better than life,
   my lips will glorify you.
4 I will praise you as long as I live,
   and in your name I will life up my hands.
5 My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods;
   with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
6 On my bed I remember you;
   I think of you through the watches of the night.
7 Because you are my help,
   I sing in the shadow of your wings.
8 My soul clings to you;
   your right hand upholds me.
9 They who seek my life will be destroyed;
   they will go down to the depths of the earth.
10 They will be given over to the sword and become food for jackals.
11 But the king will rejoice in God; 
    all who swear by God's name will praise him,
    while the mouths of liars will be silenced.

Without God, I have no life. Without God, I have no joy. At this point of my life, I feel empty because I have not been spending enough time with Him. Lord, I pray and ask that You help me be disciplined to spend more time with you. This is so that I have joy in my life. Thank you. In Jesus name, amen (:

Why- Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as white

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said, "Daddy, why are they screaming?"
"Why are the faces of some of them beaming?"
"Why is he dressed in the bright purple robe?"
I bet that crown hurt him more than it shows
Daddy please can't you do something
He looks as though he's gonna cry
You said  he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die

Later that day, the sky grew cloudy
Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
And boy was he right
But i could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left, I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowd
To a hill  where i know men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said, Father why are they screaming?
"Why are the faces of some of them beaming?"
Why are they casting their lots for my robes?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows
Father please, can't you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Fathe remind me why
Why does everyone want me to die
Oh, when will I understand why?

My precious son, I hear them screaming
Im watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe in robes of my own
Jesus, this hurts me more than you know
But this dark hour, I must have nothing
Though I heard your unbearable cry
The power in your blood destroys all of their lies
Soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below see the child, trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell why, she is why you must die.

This song always never fails to touch me. To think of all that Jesus has done for you and for me. Such a painful death. Not just the pain of bearing the cross, but also the pain of seeing the unmerciful eyes of people wanting Him to die. And we are the reason why. We are the reason why He must die, so that we may have life. 

Thank You Jesus for all that You have done for me. Thank You for loving me even before I knew You. Thank You for this huge sacrifice that You have paid, because of love. Thank You Lord that You are victorious. Thank You that You rose again and gave us life anew. Without You. I know that my life would be void of joy and feelings. Thank You Jesus (: